illusions

From a distance I stare at something that I want badly,
It comes to me in pieces, do I own it, is it mine? or can it be mine?
I am not sure I can answer that
It is definitely not a mirage, I can see it clearly.
It is definitely not a dream, I am living it.
I can touch it, I can feel it.
The picture of you fades in and out in front of me..
I try to capture a image of you but in vain